Now cry me the river you promised.

Today, we celebrated Yvonne's birthday a day early by throwing her a not-so-surprising "Orange Party". Yvonne loves orange you see, so we had everything in ORANGE, the 'party streamers', the food, the packet drinks. Love you xoxo





Before that, we had a discussion during Lang Arts lesson in a feeble attempt to get us to share what we have learnt about human rights for the past few weeks. And somehow, we digressed and veered off onto the topic of elitism. I think elitists encompassing true elitists values (not those who are just kidding around cos I do sometimes)are scary people because they are a group who overgeneralizes everything, looks down on people they don't even know and labels them "inferior" without even trying to empathize with them. The egos of such people are certainly intimidating but I can't help feeling sorry for them, for they are simply aloof, ignorant and lack the ability to put themselves in the shoes of others while they live in their imaginary fortress up in the clouds. It just reflect so horribly on what kind of person you are and such people disgust me to the core.

Anyway, checking of CCA records today was depressing though I knew I had it coming given my couldn't-care-less attitude and my obvious absence of love for my CCA unlike any other Nanyang girl. Anyway, I still couldn't be bothered and I am glad I am finally out of the CCA that had me imprisoned for four years and made me suffered so much. I'll make wiser choices next time!!

I'm quite positive I will be zooming off to Taiwan at the end of the year with Yuxuan, Siman and Jiayin and maybe Tong! Alas, some motivation to study! There's this facebook group "Stop exams = Save Trees". Ever since some dude invented exams, adults have always used it as a method of psychological torture for adolescents.

Gee, which reminds me, during PCCG we were talking about money. As usual, Yueching and I digressed and we began discussing about our lifestyles of the rich and famous in the future. 30 years down the road, when we are rich and famous, we will reminisce and knew that we once tasted the bitter taste of poverty. I think I will consider myself rich when I have at least 5 credit cards and can buy things without looking at the price tag. And maybe I will migrate to Canada and make some babies there by cross breeding myself with someone with long straggly hair, beautiful blue eyes and a massive package. (Inside joke)

Ramblings

[source: ivillage] 
I am so tempted to move out, get my own place, decorate it the way I want, do what I want and study without any disturbance like my mother's annoying and incessant nagging and her barging into my room for timely "surprise checks". Mom, can you just be normal for once? For a start, maybe you can try to zip up that mouth of yours and consider the fact the noise pollution is one main reason why I'm not doing well? Or is the word "ANNOYING" just inherent in your nature? Oh please.

Guilty pleasure

If you feel alone and lost and need a friend

Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are

This is your life; you made it this far

Welcome, you gotta believe

That right here, right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be

Welcome to wherever you are

Happy Birthday To You Kelly!!!!

Jow is sexy sixteen!!! Your fan club will always love you no matter what. Happy birthday!(:





Founder's Day As usual it was boring, and the poor conditions we were in due to the lack of ventilation and the ineffectiveness of the fans in the hall made us all grumpy and all. Funfair was a little better. We were washing cars for teachers. Kelly and I were having so much fun trying to be sexy and cleaning the car at the same time and we spent over 20 minutes fussing over Mark Stone's car till we were satisfied with its state of cleanliness. We almost... almost tried to dry even all four tyres but we gave up and just stood by the side, quietly admiring its glossiness and beauty. Hmm I can marry his car...

The red and white event turned out to be surprisingly thrilling and enjoyable, one of the few rare occasions whereby we all displayed such strong school spirit and enthusiasm. GO WHITE TEAM!

After we were dismissed, Jiayin, Yuxuan and I headed over to Starbucks to hang out. We met this creepy woman there, cept we weren't sure if it was a she or a he as she/he had v. masculine features and a really deep voice. She was commenting on how Jiayin's dress code made her look like "national day" and then proceed to ooh and ah at poor Jiayin about being a Nanyang Girl. Then she/he looked at me and pointed to a rather loving couple huddled over their homework and said, "They like that cannot study one." Lol, I stupidly said, " Can! It's called motivation." He/she was busy trying to figure out what motivation means. Weird but friendly stranger.

I think Singaporeans should try to make small talk with their fellow citizens and try to be a little friendlier, more approachable. That would make our society much much warmer and I wouldn't complain as much when being surrounded by nice fellow countrymen. Anyway, Starbucks is a superb location for people watching, commenting, making superficial remarks we don't actually mean and then breaking into fits of giggles. And I don't usually drink coffee. If I visit any coffee outlet or whatever, I'd probably buy muffins or something totally irrelevant so today was the first time I ever slurped on coffee. Pretty addictive I must admit.

Bed of thorns

Just finished organizing my desk ... and my thoughts. I've got a lot of work to do and I'm in for a hard time. I'll make sure all my efforts pay off; I'm putting 100% of my heart and soul in preparation for end of year exams. I pray that I retain my sanity in the meantime. Ciao. Previous post was a rant, but nonetheless true. Hopefully studying will get my mind off people who don't matter. I shall heed Michelle's advice to keep those that I care for close to my heart.

xoxo

Oohlala

Block test 2 is over but I'm not jumping around or squealing with joy or anything. EOYs in less than a 100 days. DIE~ I can only allow myself three days National Day holiday break. This sucks and I'd rather be farming in Switzerland.

Immediately after the last of the block tests, went out for lunch with Yimeng. Dude, long time no see! It was fun catching up and all that over lunch and shaker fries. (Finally its back) Cept for the anal Indian security guard who refused to let us play at the playground. Who say that teenagers can't have fun at children's playground well unless we begin shoving and pushing kids around...

Friday's National Days celebration was ... B-O-R-I-N-G. Everything seems boring and dull right now. I can't find anything in life that makes me happy. Absolutely nothing other than good food. Hmmmph. Went bowling afterwards and wandered around. Didn't have as much fun as I wanted.

I don't know if its me. But people are like finally showing their true colours, they are not as nice as I think they were. Anyway, I think our whole society is screwed. You can't really have true friends, you know what I mean? People nowadays are just... crowd followers, ass kissers, desperate and thoughtless, uncaring, quick to judge, selfish, pushers, freaking inner assholes save for the few rare ones.

I'm not very nice myself but most of them are a LOT meaner than I am. They call themselves friends yet they don't even care about you, they just wanna hang with the cool and fun people. Desperation and fucking attention grabbing. Kinda makes me wanna puke on them. Whatever, I can get by without such fake people in my life that does nothing but gets on my nerves. They won't ever truly be happy. That's a matter of fact and I'm thankful that I'm not one of them.

Need a fucking break

But if I’m embarrassing me, I’m embarrassing you and don’t you dare say it isn’t true.
As long as the song’s getting airplay I’m dissing you.
I’m a hair away from getting carried away and getting sued.

Eminem's the greatest genius and bastard the world will ever have.

I hereby conclude that I lack stamina. Three tests on day one has reduced me into virtually a walking corpse in the subsequent days. Not to mention severely impairing my ability to study and memorize details. Yuxuan and I spent the breaks complaining about the papers, lamenting about how screwed up we are, how it is actually the school's fault for not putting student welfare (so called) first. Ah, I am screwed for Chemistry. Tomorrow, we will be free... for a while.

(Crashes back to Earth).

Here we go.

If I am going to let anyone down, fail to meet expectations, make anyone feel disappointed, I am sorry there is nothing I can do because I have already tried my best. Good luck to me, I love the world and everyone... ALL THE BEST. I can hardly breathe right now I'm having mild panic attacks. Goodnight world. Oh and hello August. I think Phelphs look hotter with more hair.